COVID-19 has wrecked havoc on so much of my life, as I am sure it has to so many others as well! When COVID first started my husband was overseas for a quick turn around TDY. I remember dropping him off at the airport and by the time I picked him back up just days later, the boy’s school had been cancelled, grocery stores were out of toilet paper, and COVID had taken over the news.
When he was gone he didn’t have internet or phone, so by the time he had service again he couldn’t believe what I was telling him. Fast forward to today and it has been very hard to transform into the life we have been forced to call our new “normal.” I am now at home 24/7 with two boys that are 15 months apart. I went 6 weeks without therapy for my oldest, and over two months without ANY help at all from outside sources. I have had to learn to let the small stuff go around the house, and let the boys do a little bit more than I used to.
So how has all of this been positive? Well…. I have spent more time bonding with my boys. Finding time to spend one on one time with both my boys in ways that is fine tuned to their own likes and needs. I have also spent a lot more time finding me time to allow myself to decompress. I have been going outdoors ALONE to exercise, bought a row machine for inside exercise, and have found time for a glass of wine and a hot bath.
Things aren’t always easy right now, in fact there are a couple days a week where I feel like I am COMPLETELY falling apart and inevitably break down in tears. But for the first time in my life I am NOT beating myself up for my shortcomings! It has taken COVID to finally open my eyes to see the person,mom, and wife I am and to see just how amazing I am. I don’t say this in a bragging or conceited way, I say it to encourage other moms to know that what you are doing is enough. You will never be perfect, or do everything correct, but you are enough!!